What A Day!

Dear Diary,

I'm somewhat bothered, bored, pissed and a little bit glad this day. So, it all started with my guy friend inviting me to a Provincial Youth Conference of the members of the Youth For Christ(YFC) which will be held at Trade and Arts School two or three weeks ago. Hoping to get to know Christ more and to be able to praise with other young individuals like me, I joined. So the day came..It was TODAY!

I woke up earlier than I expected and opened my entrecard account and dropped EC's on other blogger accounts and read manga's for the mean time. After all those stuffs, Iwent to the bathroom and soaked my body with water, dressed up and ate my breakfast. I wore a red shirt, well it was my moms' RED SHIRT, 'cause he told me so. I went there at exactly 9:00 in the morning and I sent messages asking my guy friend to go there immediately 'cause I don't know any person out there.

I waited for half an hour and met a girl named Len-len. I helped her wait for her aunt 'cause they're going to Marbel and her aunt is nowhere to be found in their meeting place. So after a simple talk with len-len, my guy friend arrived and invited me inside the school. I hoped to know more individuals as I entered the place...but what I hoped for didn't came true..

At first it was good. I met Loraine(I don't know how to spell her name), his friend, she was cute and kind and our "first" and "last" conversation was when my guy friend was there. What a pity! There are a lot of activities and a lot of people yet no one was there to accompany me. My friend is with his guy peers and Loraine is with her gal pals and me, I was left alone all by myself trying to entertain my embarrassed self with the sound of the bands playing. No one did ever had the courage to asked me my name or asked me to be their friend. If I were brave enough and wasn't shy, I would've been the one to do it myself but what could I do? I am shy in nature. I was a little disappointed on how they acted on new comers like me (Well, i think I was the only "New Comer" and the only Bible Baptist there)..

Sitting in one corner of the stage yet no one dared to ask me something..people would just passed by me..If you were me what would you feel?..Embarrassed till death,right? and to think that the program is more about loving one another..Is that how they show love?..

So I sent a message to my mom to fetch me at exactly 4:00 pm because I'm feeling out of place. I waited for her yet she didn't came so I went outside the place and rode a tricycle on my way back home. She was surprised though, when she saw me.

I told her how great and grand the activities were and that I was left alone all the time...What a Day! What a shame!

♥ I love God more than everything and I am willing to give up my everything for him. What I am saying is not a lie and God knows that.

xOxO,
Lollii-pii