♥ ~sigh~

♥ I haven't wrote anything in the past few weeks..

♥ It's because..= I am really occupied..

♥ I had tons of projects to accomplish and lots of lessons to review..

♥ && a bunch of wonderful and spectacular events that occurred..

♥ We celebrated two birthdays in the month of July..

♥ My Moms' and my Uncles' birthday..

♥ We ate spaghetti (my favorite) and brownies and ice cream!,&& drank softdrinks..during my mom's b-day.. (she's 40+,,wanna guess it?)

♥ We celebated my Uncle's special day at their house..

♥ Instead of meat and some fat-rich foOds, we ate veggies (I love the veggie salad) and cake..

♥ I played with my cousins there..It was a fun experience!..(Omedettou for my Uncle and Mom)

♥ At school?..

♥ Betsuni..demo Ureshii!..Just participated in special events..( I got elected as treasurer in a club)

♥ Wahahaha~!i'm rich..

♥ Yah~yah~..Ever since I visited DBC, i got to know God more..

♥ Today, I'm going to our church to attend a prayer meeting..

♥ I promise not to fall asleep again..(I felt drowsy the previous time I attended our prayer meeting..I fell asleep...Gomenasai Kami-sama..)

♥ Um..I'm also thankful to God because our mastery test is already finished..

♥ My score in Math is 29/35 and in Social studies = 39/40,..

♥ Awtz..what can i do?..I'm not goOd in Math..

♥ I admit that I am not goOd when it comes to numbers..

♥ I'm soO excited this Friday--there's an activity in school..(change toPiC)

♥ i participated in the Jingle competition..(♫♪♫la~la`~la~♫♪♫)

♥ I'll write more about it soon..!Ja ne~

Konbanwa!!..Pii-chan Here!

Another day had passed smoothly?! This day was quiet vexatious-really. We had a summative test in Geometry and I got a low score of 23/30. Wah~ so L-O-W. One reason is that I haven't reviewed my lessons 'cause I had a headache yesterday-and I hate it; and the other one is that, I D-O-N-T like "MATHEMATHICS ". yeah! The passing score was 24..that's why it's so bothersome..grrr... The rest of the subjects were fine. Oh! I merely forgot..we also had a summative test in chemistry-it was easy yet I had a mistake. Instead of CRUSIBLE tongs, I wrote- CLUSIBLE tongs (clusible sounds like a name of a medicine?ne?..) How dumb of me!..I end up laughing at my answers and somewhat regretful.Grrr!(again).

I did some insane acts today..like dancing with my "Monster" Mom just like in the disco. Hahaha! She was more insane than me..but I love her for that. I also chat with my best friend outside the house. She told me they're going to dance at the mall and surely I'll watch her. I'm planning to be a Dj on killerbee if possible. Even though I have this tweeny weeny tiny voice, I still have the motivation to do so. I want to be progressive outside the school and I want to prove that I have the will and I'm able to do it. Aja Pii-chan!..

I'm glad that this day is finally OVER..

Lyrics of My Fave SonG..

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until (until) the end (the end) of time

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you, and I wanna have your kids
It can never compare to the feeling of your kisses
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank God that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt, in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side

But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday, that I spend with you
And I wont miss you cause I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until(until) the end(the end) of time

mOMMy??..Where are you??

Mom is late..!I wonder if she extended her time for work..Okkassan come home Please...I miss you...!!I hope she will come back safe. I'm sleepy now..but I'm still in front of the PC while waiting for her. Well, I guess I need to sleep and have her wake me up when she got home. God Bless..
Ki o tsukete..Minna daisuki desu~..

Ha-Pii

LOVE AmonG TEENS

A MUST READ!!

As you begin to enjoy salvation- God's gift to you,
you will find there are many things to be learned. Your mind will be renewed
day by day and there will be continuous growth in this world.
As God's plan for your life begins to unfold, you will find that life with
God is a wonderful experience in this world.

It's not ToO Late

Why do our parents keep on arguing on useless things that can be settled in a proper and peaceful way?..Why do they choose to hit each other? Do they think of the consequences before they act harshly?

Separation or even quarrels of either parents may cause their children tons of problems, they may not know but they are doing it..slowly..and in a painful way. I know and I understand that life on Earth is not as easy as picking fruits from trees..It's way too hard for everyone.. there are times that our problems are hunting us and chewing our brain and even our heart little by little that often times, we blame it to the person we loved the most..

Why is this world so rude??..why do we keep on doing things we humans must NOT?

We must shower peace upon each and everyone of us...Trust in thy Father and offer thy self.
Repent from your sins and regret your wrong doings. Apologize to those people you had hurt..to those you hate...and to your God..Open your eyes and the door of your heart..It's not too late to take the path God chose for you..It's not too late...

Alive Again..

Wah~ I thought I would never go back to my usual self- joyful and energetic. Gladly, I did and I am super Satisfied. One reason maybe because I started the week right!..I went to church this Sunday-well, I usually do but this time it's different, I visited another Baptist Church at the City proper. I realized that what I did was wrong- blaming myself, and that the plans of God for me is for good and not for evil to give me a better future and a hope. It was very meaningful that it made my tears run down my morena-toned cheeks. I'm glad I visited that church and I will surely visit it again..Nothing is impossible with God..!

This week, was fun and satisfying.Today, we had a presentation and so I did my best. We made our classmates laugh so hard that they almost can't breath-too exaggerated. It was fun, I lost almost all my energy for the small play. It was about using your potentials and talents for God and for everyone to see and appreciate. That will and surely be my favorite play this year. I played the role of a daughter who was molested by no one..ha-ha-ha.it's because, in the play, we joined a talent show and we chose acting 'cause we're good actresses. My name there was Beverly Hills- my name's Beverly and my surname is hautea not Hills take note!My friend's name was Jolie Ann Santos-who was my acting partner, her real name is Julie ann..her name in the play was from a great actress in the world of entertainment right now.. The other's are Rofa Mae Ketong, Pookwang (the judges), Dawn Choopeta, Kim chihuahua (both singing partners in the play) and the hosts Hannah and Alma. Wah~ I can't forget this play my whole life..!!That was fun! I assure you..you would laugh hard if you were there..

The best part that happened to me this week was that I gained back the lost good relationship I had with my friends..Thank you God!..

The Bruises in My Heart

I thought I was showing everyone the friendliest side of me, I never did gave them headaches and was always there for them to hear their calls. i thought I was filling their empty hearts with love and care..with joy and happiness...no sorrow and pain...

i was always acting weird to make them laugh. Just to see them smile brightens up my day... I thought everything was going fine until I confessed to a friend what I kept inside this heart of mine for a very long time.

i told her the thing I only told once to a very trusted friend...I didn't expect it would end my good relationship towards them. I confessed to that very person that i dislike someone's attitude and how that individual communicate with some of her elders. I utter words I shouldn't have...

This was continued, when this friend whom I shared the secret, told me what she thinks of that person- she agreed with me. So then, we shared what we both felt to our other "group of friends." At first, I opposed the idea..but i thought that, at least, I can let go of these feelings.

I asked my mom if what I did was wrong. Gladly she said NO.. there's nothing wrong with it as long as you didn't utter it to the wrong individuals. I didn't told them not to tell anyone about the conversation 'cause I know someone can't stop her big mouth from babbling it OUT.

The next day, I told my friend to just understand her 'cause I know she's on the same dilemma as what I had encountered in the past-mine was the worst. That she needs love and care from her friends. All we have to do is to forget and forgive..

But nothing goes as easy as FORGET nor FORGIVE...

She confronted me, the girl I am talking about..she's frank though..Asking me if "I" hate her.. I told her the truth but deep inside me, my whole being was drenched in tears. i felt death clinging into my arms..I can't fight..I don't want to..All I said was "Sorry because I had hurt you and Thank You because you corrected me."

No one understands me and Nobody will...i am fond of keeping pains in my heart from time to time 'cause I'm afraid to hurt someone...

But, my worst expectation came in the scene...

I have this attitude that once I did something to hurt someone dear to me, i would hurt myself. Luckily, I was afraid to commit suicide. I only pinched myself and slapped my face really hard, my eyes were like a flowing river. I didn't stop in whimpering and yelling "Lord Help me!" and "Am I the worst friend ever?" (it was funny, though)

I admit I was wrong..I even made my mother cry knowing that I did "that" to myself and I promised her I'll never do that again..Still, the bruises remained...It was painful..

REALLY PAINFUL...

I'm drowning in tears..☻

Today, I found myself crying AGAIN, not because I'm bored and not because my bag can't be closed 'cause the zipper went off.The reason is, I think, no one would like to extend a hand after they've seen it..

I cried because I was lonely, my heart was aching that time..I felt it being crumpled and crushed into pieces. No one did helped me get the zipper back, instead, after dismissal?, I found myself "alone" in our row. Was i neglected?..and for what possible reason?

They saw me drenched in tears..and somebody asked me what's wrong. All i can do is shake my head signaling them that nothing's going wrong but inside I was thinking if I still have those true friends of mine inside that very room. Did I made the wrong decision? Why am I the only one suffering after "that" occurence? It was hard for me to fight for myself because I don't know how..better yet, I don't want to.

i still am thinking about it while writing this...

I'M SAD... if someone would say "Calm down and Pray," my burdens might decrease a level or two...

This might be the hardest part of being "So" good....learning how to fight would be a hard task...

All I need is a Phsychiatrist...

I have to visit a psychiatrist. Why, you may say? Because I am insane as Hell! Damn!

I don't know why but I can feel and somewhat know what other people thinks about me. I'm gonna go crazy..(or I already am?)

I can't tell anyone about it because I trust no one..well..Except for God and my Family.. They might think of me as a bad person which is NOT! You may think that I haven't been properly guided by my mo. No! My mother is always there to hear my calls. Its just that I can't understand myself. I'm not moody or something..maybe because I don't know how to fight??

I H-A-T-E being soOo emotionally weak...

I don't want the time to come that I need to choose between life and death. I don't want to end up like that.

Maybe all I can do now...is... PRAY and HOPE that everything will be solved at once...